Manifest.

I am so excited to be writing this blog possibly because I pulled this card and it said something along the lines of me needing to write and that it will help myself (and others) - that is where I’m at. So here goes, I’ll try hard to not say the ‘c’ word because if you are anything like me you’d be so bloody sick of it. This past year has either been 1. totally normal and you haven’t really felt a shift or 2. the entire opposite, kind of like when you empty your hand bag as a Mama and all the shit goes flying out. Best part is though, like a hand bag, the stuff we don’t need we remove and the rest starts build back just the way you like it.

It’s strange the world we are living in. Something I never really thought we’d experience and more so now as a Mama and we kind of have to have our shit together for our babies. I’ve been very blessed my whole life. I have a wonderful family and beautiful friends. I have always had that view you know when they say ‘glass half full’ yes that was me (will be again soon). Until recently probably ‘lockdown no.5’ related that I have this whole new feeling of the unknown. If you don’t align with what I’ve said so far you don’t have to continue. I get you mama, I was there as well. Love me and leave me there for my next blog whenever that be which Im sure will be a lot lighter haha.

But for the other half of us, the right now is so unclear. It’s like you want to move forward in leaps and bounds but the reality of being ‘stuck’ creeps up. You know, never in my life have I had a panic attack until the other night. It was so shit. I’ve heard of people have them, I’ve been there to support people having these but not once have I ever had one. I see this as a massive growth in my life. I feel like I’m living through this period with the quote constantly in my mind of ‘you grow through what you go through’. When you look at it like that it’s pretty bloody cool. I feel like I have a whole new understanding of people at a much deeper level, most importantly though, myself. So many Mums that I have spoken with feel so much the same. A girlfriend actually said to me today that it’s those ‘triggering’ things that are constantly happening around us. That is true.

I miss people. I thrive off human interaction and yes my three children are human but far out I don’t know how many more times I can continue to live in four walls and answer another question about another toy or talk about another animated movie or listen to them asking for another bloody snack. My eldest daughter actually said to me the other day ‘Mum I want to ask…” before she even finished I was like STOP ASKING me questions and far out I felt so bad. Husband comes home and does what we do for 20 minutes and loses their shit at the kids and I’m over here waving like boy can I give you a lesson too? Lol. 20 minutes mate. You’re lucky. Lucky his amazing. Like amazing. Lucky this time won’t last forever but let it be your growth. Use it as your power. Believe in yourself that this time too shall pass and what is on the other side is a boss ass bitch waiting to make her dreams come true.

So what I’m here to tell you about is probably a little bit nutty but if you’ve come this far I think you’ll probably enjoy it. What we think about we attract true? So what if i said what you manifest, you make happen. True also. Manifesting is bringing to life, to your eye what you think about. If you haven’t already do yourself a favour and watch ‘The Secret” on Netflix. It’s about the law of attraction and it’s such a uplighting and inspiring show. A fun fact, I saw a clairvoyant in Echuca a couple of months ago. I’d always been super sceptical of them. Always so intrigued. In fact anyone struggling or needing an answer I’d so freely say go see a clairvoyant. It was my turn, I was struggling. I hadn’t exercised in forever and was just after my back op, lockdown after lockdown, I’d fallen out with a close friend and I was so bound up on feelings of betrayal and just constantly there in my mind. I went to this session with absolutely no expectations. It was incredible to say the least. Trish helped me so, so much. She told me I was having spiritual awakening. I believed it too because the way I felt in that room was intense. I felt all these swirling, rolling, heavy feelings of energy all over me. She knew I was an empath and how much I heal people with my energy when they visit me for their photo sessions. Trish cleared all the feelings that I felt so heavy grieving the loss of a mate that was still here. Powerful. Loved every bloody second of it. She also told me we will sell up well and move to the beach and live this incredible life. I’m here for that. Maybe that is where we are heading, I’m here for it anyway! (manifesting ya see insert smirk)

The following morning I have a photoshoot, newborn, in the studio. The lovely lady I have no idea how she even knew but she tells me she is a clairvoyant. I was like get the f out LOL! Like what are the chances. Dani is her name and she told me she just bought a house across the road. Crazy how the universe works. Dani is teaching me some amazing things, opening my mind up to a new space. I’m so excited.

Anyway, this morning I woke up, I saged the fk outta my house, with all the amazing intentions, cried a-lot released it all, I put on my incense I pulled a card from the deck that said to do this and here I am with headphones on after meditating and now listening to meditation music (slightly hooked). Feeling a lot lighter for it. Amazing how the spiritual side works huh. I am excited to keep travelling this path. I’m excited to grow and to understand us as humans on a whole deeper level. I have a vision. A pull. I love photography. Clearly. But I have a draw to help people. This is the start of something, I don’t know what or when, but it is and it will align so wonderfully with you Mama. Love and light, leave her wild Jas x